Lee lay in bed one night unable to sleep. So many things were going around his head. It had come as a shock when Dee told him she was pregnant, they were separated and the baby was anything but planned. He was slowly getting used to the idea of being a dad, he was planning to be involved with his child but he always thought that Dee would be the one doing the day to day caring, not him.
Now he was left alone to bring up their child and he was panicking. She was slowly getting stronger and Cottle was cautiously optimistic about her future. Lee didn’t know the first thing about taking care of a baby, he had nothing for her and the feelings of panic that he had been choking down since her birth began to overwhelm him. A sob escaped from his throat and he began to cry, he was completely terrified. His biggest fear was that he would let his child down and he knew first hand how that felt and he wouldn’t wish that on anybody. He lay in bed tears streaming down his face until he fell into an exhausted sleep.
Lee was wakened by the sound of someone hammering on his door. He got up and answered the door to his father.
As soon as Bill saw him, a feeling of concern swept over him. Lee looked exhausted, he was pale, his eyes bloodshot “Lee did you manage to get any sleep last night?”
“I’m okay,” came his stock reply as Lee busied himself getting clean clothes out of his closet.
“Lee, talk to me son. The past few weeks have been rough. I’m worried about you and don’t you dare tell me you’re fine because you’re not.”
Lee couldn’t answer, he had heard the concern in his father’s voice and he knew he was right. Recent events had shaken him to the core and it had surprised him. He had not bargained on the depth of the grief he was feeling but he knew he had to be strong for the baby. He couldn’t admit his fears to his father.
“Lee, I want to help you.” Lee turned and once he saw the look on his fathers face it undid his resolve.
Lee walked over to the couch and took a deep breath. He looked Bill in the eye and told him tearfully. “Dad, I don’t know if I can do this.”
Bill sat beside him and pulled him into his arms. Bill was saddened to hear Lee saying those words, Lee always had an amazing capacity for self-doubt and this was no time for him to doubt himself. And whose fault is it that he constantly doubts himself Bill thought?
“Lee you can do this. You’re strong and that baby is counting on you. You’re not going to be on your own, I’m here and I’ll help. It may be nearly thirty years since I changed a diaper but I can do feeds, baby-sit whatever you want me to do. We’ll do this together.”
“But look at this place, I don’t have anything for her”.
“Lee that’s not a problem, we’ll get her whatever she needs. You just concentrate on her for the moment, lets get her well. You need to start taking care of yourself as well. Why don’t you go back to bed and get some rest. I’ll drop in to sickbay to see the baby and if they need you they can call you.”
“Okay,” Lee agreed and Bill helped him back into bed. Lee felt a little better at his father’s reassurance. Lee was soon sound asleep and when he woke hours later he felt more rested than he had in a long time. He got out of bed, had a shower, got dressed and then went to the mess to get something to eat before going to sickbay.
When he arrived he noticed sickbay was a little more crowded than normal.
One of the nurses told him that President Roslin was over for a check up.
He went through to the Intensive Care area and smiled when he saw his baby. She was asleep in her incubator and Ishay was checking over.
“Hey looks like someone’s Dad is here” Ishay said and smiled.
Once Ishay had finished checking her over she lifted the baby and handed her to Lee. “Hi sweetheart, did you miss me. While the baby was settling in his arms, Lee accidentally brushed his arm against Ishay’s. Their eyes caught for a few moments and Lee felt something. He quickly looked down at the baby. When their arms had brushed it was like an electric shock.
“I’ll leave you two alone but if you need anything let me know”. Ishay told him, trying to recover her composure.
Lee settled back in the chair with the baby in his arms. A while later Bill came down to visit.
“Dad I’ve decided on her name. I’m going to call her Abby. Abby Laura Adama. What do you think?”
“It’s beautiful” Bill replied, his voice choked with emotion. “Laura is going to be thrilled when you tell her.”
“I’m going to be thrilled with what?” said a voice behind them.
“I thought I’d stop by and see how you guys are while I’m here”, Laura smiled at them.
“We’re doing fine,” Lee replied. He looked so contented with the baby in his arms.
“You must be so relived she’s doing okay” Laura said “So are you guys going to let me in on the secret or what?”
“I’ve decided on her name. Abby Laura.” Lee smiled down at his daughter and then at Laura whose eyes filled with tears.
Laura knew she wouldn’t live to see Abby grow up. Cottle had told her that the chemotherapy was not working and her cancer was spreading.
“Oh Lee. It’s perfect.” And with that she bent down and kissed Abby. “I’m very happy to meet you, Abby Laura.”